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behind the smile
wanting to write and i don't really know about what.I am really bad at writing but i am going to do it just the same. So here I am wanting to share my thoughts, just hoping to inspire myself to move into a new place in my life,a place with new experiances, new friends, new direction and a new hope, does anyone else hear the star wars theme right now?



i love the smell of fresh cut grass. i like early mornings. I love the idea of energy...i love a cozy fire and a cup of erikas coffee. I love entertaining conversation. I love people who make me feel comfortable, I hate akward silence. i hate the conversation i make when there is a akward silence. i like real friends. Make excuses for people you 'll make life easier for everyone.laugh when your ready to fight, that feeling will pass.there are people in your life who need time to grow and change, let them , they are worth waiting for. one day, they may just be waiting for you. have friends that make you laugh and keep them as close as you can.my husband is the best person i have ever known. I love the idea of no debt.I love to hear babies giggle. I love to watch my neice's and nephew's play.I love having a big family! I hate when i embarass myself and it takes me a year to recover. I love the idea of being a childrens author. If there is one place I could go tomorrow, it would have a a jet ski waiting there for me. no one cares for people as much as my mom and my aunty Barb. And they can garage sale like no one else on this planet. My dad is one of the most creative and inventive people i have ever known. i keep trying to be creative hoping those genetics will kick in one day!You find your best friends in the weirdest places. my husband is the funniest person. laughing is my favorite thing in the world.Doctors are not your friends but if you find one you like send them a christmas card. i love to cook, i love to create, I miss my stainless steel kitchen and the original cast members at the bean. Where is bob? And what happened to those muffins? Hello kitty is real and she lives in port alberni, you can fight off a cat with a dull ice skate, ask kate.When we are old and our husbands are no more kate and i will live on a cruise ship because our children will not want us in their house's because we have never been normal and I am sure now that age will not improve this. i love to play volleyball. i love to listen to ghost stories. I love hope. miracles happen and there will be a day without disease. When friends make fun of what is important to you, tell them the truth, they really want you to. my husband loves to take scary risks. I admire him.i love to hear his thoughts, he is truly a incredible person. Putting yourself first isn't always easy but sometimes it is needed.I love the ocean. I love long beach. natural limitations...are they there as a challenge or as warning? I want to accomplish one bizarre challenge this year but I am not sure what it is.I love black and white photography because it hides life's blemishes and makes almost everything beautiful. When I was little i really believed I could be or have anything in life that I wanted, why does time strangle that? life s greatest challenge, letting kids dream. I believed in santa till i was twelve, really I still do.... played with barbies till I was 14, ok still do.I love to teach. I love to sing. bought a guitar and i am learning to play. I suck. I would love to be a good musician but I am pretty sure that isn't going to happen.eggplant sounds disgusting but is very yummy. marry your best friend, because he will always be there even if your complaining about your husband. don't forget how to be a kid, enjoy the silliest,simple things like playing volleyball in the mud, sardines in the gym, barbies with your neice and never forget the best of all, super soakers, everyone needs a super soaker war at least once a year!